Campaign Three - Familiar Start, Unknown Future

“If you start to take Vienna – take Vienna!!”

Napoleon Bonaparte – on keeping focused on a goal, applying overwhelming force, and not getting distracted.

 

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If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster

    And treat those two impostors just the same; 

 Kipling, "If", Second Stanza, Second Verse

July 15, 2016 -My New Example Of Perseverance

I read a wide variety of books, seeking insights and wisdom as I move through life. One "trendy" book, at least back in the '90's, was The Book Of Five Rings by Miyamoto Musashi. Like a lot of these management fads, I only took one thing away from it, but what I took has fundamentally changed my approach to life. In my book, Rambling Along His Way, in the essay "Rhythms Of Life" (free download, shameless promotion for Rambling and More Rambling), I talk about how we live with many cycles within our existence. Some we are very aware of. Christmas comes once a year, we're never ready, and we complain that the stores convert their holiday sales areas too early. Monthly, we pay bills, and flip calendars. Weekly, we get paid and Fridays come around. Daily, we get up and do what needs to be done.

The epiphany for me was that we are living in a single cycle, also, called life. We're born, go through life events, and sooner or later, we move to the next life. Since our awareness is usually slower than the cycle, we don't always see this. Only by looking at others, particularly our parents and children, do we truly view the "seasons of life" that are mentioned in both the Book of Ecclesiastes and by The Byrds. I can see that, at the age of 58, with children grown and career concluding, that I'm in a different place than I was at 22 or 47.

I specifically use age 47 because that's the last age I was BC (before cancer). I fought that one, lived to 55, relapsed, fought that one, lived to 58, now here I am again. But, as I indicated in my last post, I'm getting better at doing the cancer thing. I know the ins and outs of treatments, side effects, and The Medical Machine. My family has quickly settled into Cancer Normal, doing what we do, physically and procedurally.

What's changed is that Taking Vienna the third time is different than taking it the second time, which was different than the first. Emotionally, we're in a different place, both based on our current life season,, and progression through the treatment path. Mainly though, I'd say it's the hope cycle we're really dealing with here. How many times, we ask, must we go through this? Are we ready to give up on a cure, and get our heads to a place where this is a chronic, life long disease?

Up until now, my cancer example was a local lady named Betty. She was well known around our community, due to her incredibly gracious manner, her quiet spiritual leadership, and the example she set in how to live in the world while not buying into current mores. To me, though, Betty is the lady I shared the chemo room with, who was on her sixth cancer battle. At #3, with a decade of fighting under my belt, I'm one of the old hands at this among the local oncology crowd. I'm still only half way to Betty's mark. So I've held that as a "desperation goal," that I can equal that mark, six full rounds.

Well, in the situation I'm in, with two failed transplants behind me, I've added another inspiration, a nameless man I've never met. He's 52 now, relapsed about 5 times, and has received NINE of the DLI treatments I am headed for. His story, in extreme medical geek talk, is in this 2013 journal article. As of then, he'd lived a decade past his failed transplant, through 9 further mini transplants, and I see no reason why I can't do the same thing. Sure, looking ahead to multiple relapses and more cycles of infusions and possible Graft vs. Host episodes, is rather daunting. But, as the whole theme of this post suggests, quoting my 2 year old grandson, "I've got this." I know how to live with cancer. I can balance work, family life, and treatments. I can do the Moffitt Hokey Pokey for as long as I need to. And if I'm sitting here at age 68, writing Taking Vienna Campaign Six, well, I can live with that.

News You Can Use

After that philosophy blast, it's time for some nuggets of actual information for my huge and greatly appreciated support group. You've been asking, "what's the plan?" Well here they are:

 Plan A: Restart ibrutinib daily - began June 22. Monthly Rituxan infusions - began July 6. Repeat bone marrow biopsy and scans every 2 months, until disease is back under control (not actually remission, but under control with the glorious status of NED (no evidence of disease) or progress stops (about 6-8 months max)

Plan A.1: Given the ibrutinib/Rituxan combo works as well as it did in 2014, start Donor Lymphocyte Infusions. Here's a quick, lay article explaining DLIs. These might be called (not by a doctor, but close enough for us lay folk) "mini transfusions." My original donor, who I thank God for every day, would have to go through the donation routine again. Assuming he agrees, they pull stem cells and freeze them. I get little doses, without any further chemo prep. The hope is to generate just enough Graft vs Host to kill off the cancer and maintain me cancer free without further treatments. The doses escalate until I reach the right level of GvH vs side effects, so I can live a normal life without any more treatments.

Plan B: If the ibrutinib/Rituxan doesn't beat back the cancer. We move to more aggressive treatments, anything from immunomodifiers like Bendamustine (my 2012 regime) or even back to traditional chemo drugs. Alternatively, there are some new drugs in the pipeline, similar to ibrutinib, that show possible good outcomes.

So, pathfinding again. I'm out there on the frontiers of treating Mantle Cell Lymphoma. I occasionally run into folks, on line, that have more years than I do, giving me hope that we can do this a long long time.